| Thursday, March 3rd, 2005 |
| 12:51 am |
pattern project for 2D... totally understable if you find it a slow read.
10:30 pm. tuesday, march 1st. smashing pumpkins - tonight,tonight. danielle, connor, simon, nathan and i. first concerts? worst concerts? beads. orange wawa crates. may + caroline. may's tweed jacket. teal american spirit can. maggotbrain-parliament funkadelic. warm red glow of smoke lamp. comfortable + relaxing. will simon ever perform surgery? yes. but not legally. may's and my fears of surgery. prominent browns: tan carpet, may's sweater, light brown rug, khaki pants, connor's pant stripe, shirt, hat(dark), beanbag + pillows. wooden furniture. purple of jacket(velvet). smokey. vanilla scented tobacco. pipe. feeling yourself disintegrate-flaming lips. yuppage. 12:20 am. pale purple bowl. with yellow stripes - easter egg style. crosswords scattered on the floor. sly - que sera, sera. i love that song. unbreakble. m night shamalon. satan's road. clowns? the village. skurrry. bored by plot. already know it. little wing - hendrix. 1:16 am. more hendrix... mother simon's mexican children? i get to name them too! house trained? baby wall decorations? empire ashtrays->revolts. baby solution=perfect society. hot commodity. train fuck?? double powers of amusement. the old bay incident. everybody's gotta learn sometime - beck. 1:36 am. i totally thought it was an hour later than it is. 1:46 am. 3rd planet - modest mouse. final fantasy. omelet yellow shirt. fuzzy->happy. intermission to do tom vance hw. everyone filtered to bed. simon + i sit and do work. he's painting something i'm pretty sure was due a week ago. i'm using micropens to do a 18" x 24" drawing. worst scenario ever. all i see is black + white. my eyes hurt. we listen to the mix cd i made for danielle. he clearly enjoys it more than she did + tells me i have adorable taste in music. he makes me hot chocolate with mini marshmellows, which disappointingly enough are NOT made of sedatives. we share an orange and talk about high school. i'm out of cigarettes again. i think of how much money i've wasted on cigarettes and get slightly depressed. 4:58 am. i decide to leave seeing as we've both morphed into flesh eating zombies... minus the flesh eating part. i open the door to complete whiteness. "fantastic. more snow. shit, it's totally laying." "well, there is nothing like a good lay donna." "right. on that note, goodnight." so i venture back to the dorms and it's beautiful and still. the snow looks like raining glitter. the breezeway is flooded again. giant yellow "wet floor" sign. get to my room + carly has left me a small painting. its sky blue with vibrant swirls and white blossoms. i love it + hang it up. i feel totally fulfilled. 5:17 am. i crawl into my gigantor tie-dye bed of goodness and pass the fuck out. Current Mood:  jubilantCurrent Music: stellastarr* - my coco |
| Wednesday, February 16th, 2005 |
| 1:14 am |
v-day dinner
 before.  the toast.  TA TA TA TA and simon.  carly seducing me.  conner and sean.  dancing with elaina.  simon is my love muffin.  my ladies. <3!!! happy belated lovers day. Current Mood:  loved |
| Sunday, January 2nd, 2005 |
| 8:40 pm |
std always says it best
Oh great here I go again I'm stuck in this rut and I'm not sure how to begin- should I tell you everything? I'm feeling out of luck so I won't see you soon 'cause I know it's too soon for you to see me- if this is the last thing you do just tell me that it's o.k. for me to have these feelings for you and that it's normal to want to call you. Oh I'm dialing the phone and I'm letting it ring for hours and I'm pretending to hear your voice- Why does my heart always beat before yours does? After a while you can make yourself believe in almost anything, so I'm making myself believe in you. Current Mood:  quixotic |
| Thursday, December 30th, 2004 |
| 1:42 am |
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You're the first person that I've wanted to talk to for more than five minutes ever. |
| Monday, September 13th, 2004 |
| 7:14 pm |
dusty died this morning. Current Mood:  depressed |
| Tuesday, August 17th, 2004 |
| 5:45 am |
i forgot to go to bed tonite. good times. |
| Tuesday, June 15th, 2004 |
| 5:07 pm |
no more sausages...
| How to make a subjecttochange |
Ingredients:
5 parts pride
1 part ambition
5 parts awesome
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Method:
Add to a cocktail shaker and mix vigorously. Top it off with a sprinkle of wisdom and enjoy! |
Current Mood:  refreshed |
| Saturday, June 5th, 2004 |
| 5:27 pm |
thanks rain, for ruining my hersey park trip today. oh well. seven more days until the real fun begins. not that the past week or so hasn't been VERY interesting... can't wait. <3 |
| Sunday, May 30th, 2004 |
| 12:43 am |
best night. ever. party at nacrelli's. sooooo great. saw art and soulfuck and birney. been spending a lot of time with mike and pat. i don't know what i'd do without them. spending time with people who love you and make you feel good is what's up. this summer couldn't get any better. xo. Is this what you call tact? I swear you're as subtle as a brick in the small of my back Current Mood:  ecstatic |
| Friday, April 30th, 2004 |
| 9:02 pm |
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| Saturday, April 17th, 2004 |
| 1:14 pm |
71 days.
you can't even touch where i'm at right now. i could die right now. i'm just... happy. i've never felt that before. i'm just exactly where i want to be. Current Mood:  grateful |
| Thursday, April 8th, 2004 |
| 12:37 am |
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| Tuesday, March 30th, 2004 |
| 11:56 am |
crazy people are so entertaining. How happy is the blameless Vestal's lot! The world forgetting, by the world forgot Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind! Each pray'r accepted, and each wish resign'd. Current Mood:  devious |
| Tuesday, February 17th, 2004 |
| 10:50 pm |
m'aimer pour qui je suis
couldn't be happier.you want to fuck with the eagles, you have to learn to fly. Current Mood:  hyper |
| Tuesday, February 10th, 2004 |
| 9:52 pm |
i hate frankie on real world. |
| 1:00 am |
i had an epiphany tonight. Current Mood:  thankful |
| Monday, February 9th, 2004 |
| 1:17 am |
oh you think you've got it
good fucking weekend. for my darling nick i got up at 8 am yesterday morning. and he dragged my sleepy ass to his band practice. i got to watch butterfly effect (plus like 4 other movies since we were there til 6 pm) it was way more disturbing than i expected. at 6 we headed to their show some skate park. the boys looked like retards on wheels. me,nicole, and lisa just pointed/laughed/took pictures of them on their asses. rocked DDR too :) after the show, todd, pat, nicole, nick and i went to dennys. verrrrrrrrrrrrrry interesting. i tried to be a bum today but i ended up going with monica to take candice back to school. we ate at cosi and had some interesting conversation. by this time next week there will be a star in the sky named after me. haha. ew. after that i went back to monicas for a bit. it was soooooooo good to see my spice girls<3 im really tired and cant wait to get in bed. stupid boys. being cute with me. i should know better. ugh. but i dont. Current Mood:  giddyCurrent Music: g.u.k. - newfound mass. |
| Saturday, February 7th, 2004 |
| 4:04 pm |
hahaha. that darn pot. always calling the kettle black. Current Mood:  amused |
| 1:04 am |
Cigarettes & sleep are the only things that keep me from losing my mind maybe in time you'll know that Without you I am nothing I have always acted blind I'm never coming home because you left me all alone last night and you never even showed up in the morning And so I try to find a way to hold it in I guess you win this time Good friends are hard to find Current Mood:  touched |
| Friday, February 6th, 2004 |
| 12:32 am |
feck you! this is a house of lies
so my bedroom has been transformed into a cluttered art studio. its bad enough that i can't settle on finishing one piece, but now i can't settle on a medium. its just one big mess of art supplies littered on the floor. but im not complaining. i've been accomplishing a lot despite the fact i've been holing myself up there drawing. ive been digging through photos to do the background of my project. and listening to my old mixtapes. oh the nostalgia. manimisstheyear2000! the drawings are coming out way better than i expected. i'm tacking them to my wall until i finish them all and am ready to cut them out and make a collage. besides that, danby is leaving for california this weekend. and he told me to finish his painting. the painting i started four years ago. and i thought it would be really nice if i could finish it for him before he left... but its seeming more doubtful every time i work on it. im really going to miss him. but i know this is a great opportunity, because anyone who has ever met danby knows his potential is limitless. tomorrow, pat and i are finally hanging out, and i feel like crap because i never went to visit him after his accident (i did call several times though)and HE called me up to tell me he missed me and was thinking of me. i need more people like him in my life<3 hung out with nick last night and am going to see his new band play this weekend. should be fun. sigh. xo. "Kathy, I'm lost," I said, though I knew she was sleeping I'm empty and aching and I don't know why Counting the cars on the New Jersey Turnpike They've all gone to look for America Current Mood:  determinedCurrent Music: f2f- burden |
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